Slaughter House-Five (chapter 6)

In this chapter, Billy Pilgrim experiences death. After dying, he comes to back 1945, after being threatened by Lazzaro.

I am curious about when will Billy Pilgrim definitively die, or, if he'll definitively die at all.

I don't think that Billy will live forever. Although time was be circular, You'd have to eventually seize to exist.

As I heard before in a documentary about vampires; being immortal is a gift and at the same time a curse.

If you could live forever, moments would loose their importance. Life would be worthless because you don't have to worry about doing anything. You could do it at any time, later on your life. Being immortal would be great at first, hence you never got old and so on, but you'd become lonely and depressive in the future, when you'd stop appreciating life.

Clearly, this isn't the case with Billy because he doesn't live forever. He lives his life over and over in disorder.

As cruel, or thoughtless as it sounds, I wouldn't be able to live as billy does. Being born as a normal human, and then changing your whole life onto the "living forever". I'd probably end up killing myself since this concept is still way to big for me to understand.

(according to this time concept, it would be useless to kill yourself because you would go back to some other place in life. To continue living forever. Maybe there is not a way out of this problem and that would be the worse of all. Not wanting to live, and being forced to.)

I honestly hope for a twist in the story. Either billy is able to alter his future, or his time travel stops. Until then, I will try to concentrate more on the other parts of the story (such as war).

Maybe, Vonnegut is trying to teach us to see every moment on the book as Billy is forced to see it. Without thinking on what will happen next or what will billy experience during his next time travel.

I admire Vonnegut for being able to create this concept of time. Although I found some inconsistencies, like the one I mentioned on my previous blog. Inventing a whole new idea of time means inventing a whole new idea of observing reality.

I think that this may relate to how he feels towards life. Maybe, there are moments he wants to re-live or maybe, he is afraid of death and would rather be unstuck in time.